The Silence is Deafening

Silent eyes...
forever watching.

Silent words
unspoken
but felt
even more deeply.

Silent ache
within my soul.
The pressure grows.

I could ease it all
with just a word,
but I dare not.

There's safety in silence
and solace in
the stillness
of my soul.

Sorry folks, just feeling a little introspective today, and when those moments come, I've found it best to jot it down for posterity rather than keeping it all inside to bubble over. We are all fine here at Casa d'Amore. I'm just going through one of those periods in my life where, at least on the outside, I've shut myself down from too much (if any) deep interaction. It's not a sign of any impending danger... just a mechanism for self-preservation that I learned at a very early age.

At other points in our life, we'd have implemented some sort of spanking activity to turn the tides. Not so nowadays. I'm not complaining, mind you. I don't even miss it, though I'm obviously still drawn to blogging about it on some level and maintaining some connection with that aspect of myself through the blog. But, at least for the foreseeable future, I'll just have to learn to cope with my/our ultra-real reality without any such crutches or tools for change. It should be interesting, to say the least!